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How To Help Yourself Gordon Elless
How to help your self in recovery. The first and important thing to remember is, the way you where before head injury . Well you must for get it, Then you must start from scratch .It's not to say your past wont help you,But you wont be able to go back to it after a brain injury. So that way you will go forward and your life will be better, You must remember it will be hard ,The biggest thing you must learn , Is there are people out their that can help you .But they mite not be doctors .The best help can come from some one that has gone through it . Because have gone through it before you and help the family too, So when someone holds out there hand to help take hold, So they can help you.
Trying To Find A Life Gordon Elless
Trying to deal with life with out picking up a crutch . It's one of the hardest things , I go through it a lot. Because of all the pain and thoughts that go through my head at times, At times I go for the alcohol , So I can berry the pain and to hide the thoughts that run through my head . It work sometimes , but not all the time . I find the hardest thing , Is to find something or someone to fix on , So you have to learn that , Being brain injured is similar to an alcoholic, There are mood swings ,highs, depression.And there is a tendency for those who suffer from brain injury to turn to alcoholism . IT is sad but very true , or to become addict to prescribed medication because it berries the pain and sometimes the past. I guess it's harder for me because I'm alone so much . That the thoughts can run through my head so much that it hurts alot . So when you hit that low part in life , You just have to look real hard , And should be able to pick your self up.
Picking Up The Pieces Gordon Elless
Picking up the pieces after a brain injury ,And trying to find your self ,Who are the people that are around you ? How do they fit in your life ? The hardest thing , I guess is understanding your own feelings and how to deal with them . It becomes a new world.Then, when you sort that out , It get's harder, Because you have to go out into the real world.Then you have to learn to open doors in your new life and how to deal with the new things that come from then .Then how to deal with the people that enter into your life ,Just how to use your feelings so they won't hurt your self
LIFE WHEN YOUR POOR. Gordon Elless
The injustice that the government does to the people with problems . You as something simple, like to move for your health and they make a big deal out of it . Just because you wont to live life with out pain and maybe get back into the work force guess that those big shots that don't live in pain , Just think we are trying to scam them. If they would understand that we just like to live and help others . Happiness comes from with in and when the pain is gone it makes it easier to let the happiness out ,alot easier. If love comes our way it is really good because when you have a head injury and live in pain people out there just don't understand us . I just want to be free from the pain , With out having to die for it. We should be able to say the cost is to live a better life.
Filling In The Hole Of Life Gordon Elless
Trying to fill in the holes of your life .The hole , I mean is the one when you are alone I guess ,What I'm trying to say when you are brain injured ,you fillings are out on the sleeve and its hard to deal with. To understand people is hard because your not sure what they say and there're actions , So when you try to fill that hole in your life its hard to find the right part to fit in the hole so your life will be as one with out a big empty spot in your life . At times it feels like your lost and don't know where to go so at times you what to run because you wont to find the right one for your self, But you must , Just stop too , Take the time to think , it out before you run.
MY LIFE THOUGHTS Gordon Elless
How lonely life is when you are brain injured .The people that don't walk our road treat us so different, and wont let us show then just what good we can do in the world, for the people that don't walk in our shoes , won't ever understand.What we have to go through and what we go through. I have a big heart I open it and let it out so much that most people just walk all over it and hurt me.Just because I love to help people at no cost to them. If you try to love someone that does not know you have a problem, Things go good until they find out and then they run away and hurt you just for telling the truth to them . People with the same problem, I think they look at you and don't like it because you're just like them . At times I just wish that I could stop running away and could show people how I really am and not the foul I act like to keep people from hurting me . I would like to change the way people treat people but Iam not god, but it would be nice to see . But when the end comes for me I guess I wont have to worry any more because he will make it right . At times I wish the end would come for me for soon but when I help someone I don't wish to die. Keep me helping people for the good things in life and let the bad things go . If people could just take it for what it is and no more , I would be happy . I guess its just the hardest thing in my life is been alone but I guess life has to be cruel to me and make me suffer the pain in life . I wish it would end soon for me and make the world free of me . Death would be best . No pain, no problems with life . I will not die just so I can be free from all the things in life . The nice thing that happened tonight is that I got to tell four people here how it is to be brain injured and how they could help them selves if it happens to them . The hardest thing I find is I see people from the inside out. I can look at there inside and see the real person and not the hard shell that they try to show everyone . That is what makes it so hard because people don't want you to see that side . I would just love someone to love me. But that I guess is too much to ask of someone . I just wish that the pain would go away and not have to get drunk to hide it .It's hard to hide the pain .So if I die, just remember : I love all .Maybe some more than others , but I just love all of you. life gives you a strange hand in life and you have to learn how to deal with it. It's just so hard to hide my feelings of life from people , and I guess that is the hardest thing in life to do . I just don't want to hurt anyone I'd just like to love someone but until that day I guess the pain is the biggest thing in life to look forward to and not love. I just wish people would stop hurting one another .I think if I was to end my life tomorrow the people I helped would move on and help other move on . I just find it hard to find a place for me any more , I guess what hurts so much is some people just can't see how much I care and love them , My biggest question is why people are afraid to talk a big man like me